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Accountability

What I realized over the years is that not everyone is interested in change. People admitting that they have issues are rare. It took me some time to accept this fact being that I have a transparent personality. It was a mystery to me why a lot of folk are in denial about their shortcomings. Some of us either don’t know we have issues or in denial about our issues. It is a challenge for me to sustain a healthy relationship with people who fail to notice the part that they play in anything. I had to discontinue a few relationships with people who fail to take accountability for their own actions. Blaming others, shaming others, just being critical of things with a limited perception. Sometimes we need to remove ourselves from people, places, and things that no longer serve us.

In order for me to restore, reevaluate, and realign myself I need to disconnect.  Folk who are unaware or pretend to be unaware of their own actions is a trigger for me. I’m open, honest, & willing. With that I need to be surrounded by people who are sensitive to my recovery process. I need constant inspiration, reassurance and compassion. Most of my pain began during my childhood years. I’m purposely selective. Just because people are friends are family does not mean they need to be a part of my life. This was tough for me at first due to nostalgic memories, however I realized that I could cherish positive memories and remember the good. It is our responsibility as adults to get any necessary help as needed. We need to know that ,growth is a vital part of being a human being.

I think that it is hustling backwards to be recovering meanwhile still be surrounded by people, places & things that make me sick. Forgiving someone does not mean going to be with them again in the physical form. It simply allows me to forgive myself and the part that I played and heal spiritually. I was strong enough to realize that I needed to create healthy boundaries. It felt good to take back my life. I’m not closed from the people I removed or altered communication with. I’m merely aware and alert to my needs and my peace of mind. If these so-called friends and family members ever choose to be accountable and get some professional help with their root issues, I will reconsider my relationship with them. Until then, I will carry on respectively.

This entry has been inspired by a Facebook friend who tagged me in a post regarding his struggle with mental health. I let him know that he is not alone. I simply reminded him that before we accept these labels, let us take a closer look at the people, places, & things that surround us daily. Sometimes being in an enviornment that is not supportive will make us feel like it’s our fault. When all the while some of us just haven’t been holding others accountable.

Peace.

#SparkPlenty

Fatima.

“Im not for any one; Im for every won”.

 

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Thincubator. What is it?

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Well first of all I am living in Utica New York right now at this very moment and the entrepreneurial scene is just beginning to pick up a pace. You see many will hate money and despise it for its reputation but then again money itself is the most diverse instrument known to mankind and does not discriminate anyone for even the worst of us have it in some way, shape, or form. Money also can take on a spiritual context in terms of numbers and receiving power.  An inner genius inside us.

What is Inner Genius?

Inner Genius is a 6 week lifestyle design program that helps you reverse engineer your goals, make great moves, and build the life you desire. The first ever Inner Genius Program is currently now in session and I am a proud participant of it. This is an intense 6 week period of self discovery, joy, and spiritual unity for me indeed.

As stated by Ryan Miller Founder of the Mohawk Valley Community College’s Thincubator Program, “When you join Inner Genius you are a part of a group that meets for 6 weeks and helps you build a roadmap to execute on your dreams whether you’re considering a career move, starting your own venture, continuing your education or pursuing a promotion. Regardless of your reason, discovering your inner genius will help you formulate your freedom & gain confidence to make real change in your life for designing a better future.”

http://thincubator.co/innergenius/

 

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Feel The Infinite

Feel the flow. Feel the infinite and ambient nature of the divine as it is needed for people right now more and more. Experience it. Enjoy it!

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Forgiveness

Can we forgive those who hurt us?

Are we too attached to our own ideas of who we have been before that we can’t accept who we can become?

Do certain peoples points about us irritate us a lot inside?

If so then we are struggling with forgiveness to our brothers and sisters for who they are right now and not for exactly who we want them to be in our minds. Have I said stupid things to people in order to try and make a point? Yes absolutely. Though does that make me dumber for trying? Not all of the time especially if I am aware of it being stupid and ignorant of me to say in the first place. Am I out to always appease everyone with self expression? No not all of the time either, though there are limits with people I have to be accountable for. I struggle with forgiveness of my own self to be able to grow and prosper as that is who I need to forgive the most and that is me as an individual. Can you forgive yourself as an individual too?  Troubling to do so but there are so many ways that we can grow in today’s World if we can forgive ourselves.

 

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What is it like to love someone with Bipolar?

 

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Well it is not always the simplest of things to do. You have to be very patient and very understanding of their faults, problems, and always be constantly aware of their mental state. They like to take a lot of naps in between the hours of the day but really what are hours in the scheme of things? I’m just going wild aren’t I? On to the story.

I have happened to fall in love with one of the best women ever to have existed on Earth. She has brought me more joy in my life than ever before. Though she goes haywire with mania many times and can be lost in her anger towards anything from the slightest things to the worst of life itself. She has been troubled by the biracial aspect of our relationship as well which can add another black and white dimension to it all. Yet in today’s World fortunately that is getting easier to deal with as more and more people become understanding of race not mattering as much as has been the case in previous generations.

Bipolar what is it?

Let’s get down to business on the meaning of Bipolar. At least according to the National Institutes of Mental Health it is known as, “a brain disorder that causes unusual shifts in mood, energy, activity levels, and the ability to carry out day-to-day tasks.” There are four basic types of bipolar disorder as listed by NIMH:

  • Bipolar I Disorder— defined by manic episodes that last at least 7 days, or by manic symptoms that are so severe that the person needs immediate hospital care. Usually, depressive episodes occur as well, typically lasting at least 2 weeks. Episodes of depression with mixed features (having depression and manic symptoms at the same time) are also possible.
  • Bipolar II Disorder— defined by a pattern of depressive episodes and hypomanic episodes, but not the full-blown manic episodes described above.
  • Cyclothymic Disorder (also called cyclothymia)— defined by numerous periods of hypomanic symptoms as well numerous periods of depressive symptoms lasting for at least 2 years (1 year in children and adolescents). However, the symptoms do not meet the diagnostic requirements for a hypomanic episode and a depressive episode.
  • Other Specified and Unspecified Bipolar and Related Disorders— defined by bipolar disorder symptoms that do not match the three categories listed above.

What do I suggest for ways of handling someone with Bipolar?

Though these attributes have existed with the woman I love, she is both acknowledged and seen beyond all of the negativity. Yes someone who has bipolar but someone who is stronger than it because of the life she leads as a woman of courage. So therefore in loving someone with bipolar we always can change our ways of dealing with them as well. It is much more positive to help them mediate problems within themselves by being there for them, let them cry, let them have pain with you by your side, and speak about it all as openly as possible too. All in an effort to bring them back to peace instead of only  focusing on their hardships that they tell you about. We all have our own troubles and issues in our lives and it is very important that I continue to help  her in her life by aiding her in her meditative practices and guiding her to look at the ego from an observational angle not necessarily from only one point of view. The observational angle of looking at the ego is from an outside of yourself view and it requires emptying one’s mind to a state of pure spaciousness without any other thoughts going on which is hard but a loving practice to indulge in. I have helped her to see in this light with much success and I encourage others to do similar for their partner and lover.

Solutions for loving someone with Bipolar

There are many solutions that I have used for loving her and to help her become stronger including sound therapy, touch therapy, Reiki energy work, and also essential oils for peace and calming effects. Being constantly aware of one’s troubles comes with our intense periods of poetic meditation as well that we both do together for therapeutic purposes in which she is incredibly gifted. She can improvise poetry beautifully and has writing gifts that are so beautiful as she journals much like I do for sanity and serenity amidst life. Oils have been great as well for helping our relationship prosper too, originally I had introduced her to Young Living Essential Oils at an event of theirs held at the Arboretum in Webster New York alongside my gong therapist friends.

The essential oils have helped her to relax and regulate moods within herself and for how she deals with her environmental surroundings too. I am grateful for having friends whom have been so kind to her with these healing oils.  There are oils like Frankincense that have an uplifting aroma to them and are Earthy. Frankincense has brought her more spirituality within our partnership and I am glad to be in touch with that in her as well. The oil is diffused into the air for aromatherapy and also put onto the body as well. She puts the oils onto her body for clarity and mental peace.

Entrepreneurship

She has taken on the task of entrepreneurship with strength and vigor that I absolutely admire and love dearly. She many times has tried to push me away from her projects but also knows that she does need help in carrying out her own DBA(Doing Business As) business venture if she expects it to be successful. She is getting this help from places like the Women’s Business Institute in Oneida County with Dr. Patricia Laino and also has taken Media Marketing Management at Mohawk Valley Community College too. All very positive things that any other person with Bipolar can follow as an example for coping with the ups and downs of it. I’d encourage any readers to follow her example and take on educational opportunity if you can and or do any kind of online do it yourself forms of education to quell the troubles of your mind.

She has equipped herself with a full business plan too alongside projected sales goals for her startup business which is accessories based for now until she can bring in projects like homeschooling communities, aquaponics farming, cryptocurrency investing and other various ventures that I am helping her with as well. We have been partners in ideas and also in writing out goals and aspirations. We complement each other by helping each other bring out the best of one another during the times of creative processes as well. It truly is beautiful.

Sound therapy

Also to help myself love and be there for her I have introduced her to beautiful methods of sound therapy such as utilizing the gong for entire bodily stimulation energetically. The gong is considered the oldest instrument known to humanity and is used for meditative relaxation and also works hand in hand with Yoga practices that she does as well for balance. The sound of singing bowls works directly with gongs as alternative medicine to the entire body. She has embraced this from me as I have given her the sounds of the singing bowls as she naps usually and to put her into a state of bliss.

Why is sound therapy so effective in helping love someone with bipolar?

Sound therapy is so effective because it influences our emotional bodies as well as our physical bodies. Her emotional imbalances have usually been at the root of her issues with the mental disease at hand, and when the sound  enters into her body it can help heal the emotional imbalances and the physical symptoms tend to disappear in her far more. Sound whether its just in listening to regular music or the mystic vibration medicine of the gong is deeply connected with emotional well-being. Using the gong I have addressed the emotional disturbances within her and asked where they have been in her head or body, in order to release these blockages with ease and grace. She has had better sleep as a result of the gongs when played, reduction of stress from the day, changed behaviors, stimulated circulation of energy flow throughout her body, and has been far more connected to her higher self.

 

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